Everything I Do Reminds Me of You...by van morrison

We are all Van Morrison fans in our home. The boys knew the words to Brown Eyed Girl about the time they learned A, B, C, D, E, F, G....

The Back on Top CD from a few years ago includes the song "Reminds Me of You". How many times did I listen to this CD and not feel the words prior to May of this year? Maybe a 100. Maybe 200 times. Near the end of May I was driving aimlessly around Madison trying to go no where. Back on Top was in the player where it was put by me and not removed by Aaron. Hearing the song I felt every blue note.

In the months since Aaron died I have become aware of a sense that I can touch and feel emptyness. For example, standing in the garage looking down the driveway, I can feel the space between my arm and the wall. Maybe 10 feet at most and it feels like a hundred yards. The space has a density. We stood in that garage on May 8th. Aaron asked me questions and we shared ideas. The conversation is not finished. I have questions for him too.

Reminds Me of You, by Van Morrison

I miss you so much, I can’t stand it
Seems like my heart, is breaking in two
My head says no but my soul demands it
Everything I do, reminds me of you
I miss you so much, in this house full of shadows
While the rain keeps pouring down, my window too
When will the pain, recede to the darkness
From whence it has come, and I’m feeling so blue
Ain’t goin’down, no more to the wellSometimes it feels like, I’m going to hell
Sometimes I’m knocking, on your front door
But I don’t have nothing, to sell no more
Seems like the spirit, is pushing me onwards
I’m able to see, where I tripped and went wrong
I’ll just have to guess, where my soul will find comfort
And I miss you so much, when I’m singing my song
Ain’t goin’ down, no more to the wellAnd sometimes it seems, I’m going to hell
You’ll find me knocking, on your front door
But I don’t have nothing, to sell no more
Seems like my spirit, is pushing me onwards’
til I’m able to see where, I tripped when I went wrong
I’ll just have to guess, where my soul will get comfort
I miss you so much, when I’m singing my song
I miss you so much, I can’t stand it
Seems like my heart is breaking in two
My head says no, but my soul demands it
And everything I do, reminds me of you
Everything I do, reminds me of you
Everything I do, reminds me of you


Today was a wonderful day. Tomorrow will be too. But I still miss you.

Love and Peace
Dad