A DVD is being created to be used presenting the Aaron's House project. The production requires some video footage of Aaron. I gladly talk about Aaron and want to maybe more than people care to hear. Looking at pictures is not impossible but I still have to look away sooner or later. Video is unexplored territory; it's the highest dive.
Cathy and I have talked about going through the video and picking out some family fun scenes. They are all most likely pre-summer of '03. We've talked about it but neither of us have taken a single step toward the closet where the video is kept.
The video of "little Aaron" will break our hearts but all kids grow up. I think we long ago came to terms with the boys not being little anymore. Those little boy antics are the scenes we would have laughed over with the boys and their future wives and children. We'll do that with Patrick.
There is some short video from April '04 when I spent a few days alone with Aaron. This is a photo Aaron took with my camera--he eventually came home and left the camera behind. (He "didn't have room" to pack the camera. Jeeeeezzee.) Those days in April in Bend, was our first time alone. We worked on re-building our father-son relationship. The time we had together was important to us. Lots of mending went on in those few days. We made progress. What was torn apart was carefully being rebuilt. We hiked, played frisbee, talked, read books, took pictures, watched a dad and his son paddle a kayak. Talked. Goodtimes.
Cathy and I have talked about going through the video and picking out some family fun scenes. They are all most likely pre-summer of '03. We've talked about it but neither of us have taken a single step toward the closet where the video is kept.
The video of "little Aaron" will break our hearts but all kids grow up. I think we long ago came to terms with the boys not being little anymore. Those little boy antics are the scenes we would have laughed over with the boys and their future wives and children. We'll do that with Patrick.
There is some short video from April '04 when I spent a few days alone with Aaron. This is a photo Aaron took with my camera--he eventually came home and left the camera behind. (He "didn't have room" to pack the camera. Jeeeeezzee.) Those days in April in Bend, was our first time alone. We worked on re-building our father-son relationship. The time we had together was important to us. Lots of mending went on in those few days. We made progress. What was torn apart was carefully being rebuilt. We hiked, played frisbee, talked, read books, took pictures, watched a dad and his son paddle a kayak. Talked. Goodtimes.
As the picture shows, Aaron is the "bigger Aaron", not as big as he grew, but bigger, on that video and I don't know what will happen if I watch it. I'm fearing that video like I fear a call from the coroner's office.
Seeing a movie where Aaron is walking and talking might strike one as something good. Memories, pictures, moving video AND sound---gee it's almost like real. Maybe, but I doubt it. I'll save the moving pictures for a rainier day. This for sure, I don't want my son to be just an image on a screen. I need him home. Almost two years now and I want him home with us. Sure he'd be almost 20 and off doing his thing, but I want Aaron to check in at least. If I see Aaron laughing and walking I might break.
The DVD will have to go with stills because I'm not looking.
Tom
Seeing a movie where Aaron is walking and talking might strike one as something good. Memories, pictures, moving video AND sound---gee it's almost like real. Maybe, but I doubt it. I'll save the moving pictures for a rainier day. This for sure, I don't want my son to be just an image on a screen. I need him home. Almost two years now and I want him home with us. Sure he'd be almost 20 and off doing his thing, but I want Aaron to check in at least. If I see Aaron laughing and walking I might break.
The DVD will have to go with stills because I'm not looking.
Tom
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