Wake Me Up When September Ends

This evening, with the sun setting behind me, I walked across Steve Pederson's field and recalled a walk I took with Aaron last September down the same path. We talked about how things had changed from the September of '03. Aaron was so much at peace with his life in 9/04. He had recently completed 40 days in the desert of Idaho learning respect for nature learning about himself.

Today Cathy, Patrick and I share the same heartache, and constant edge of tears, physically aching turmoil of emotions trying to fit Aaron's void into our lives. It's not possible that the door will not open and we once again hear the easy "hey" from Aaron. We'll all wake up with relief that this was all a long nightmare.

For the first time, ever I think, I sat in Aaron's chair at the dinner table. What a different perspective I felt from such a simple thing. Aaron sat directly across from me and next to Cathy and Patrick. Sort of the way we usually conducted our relationship; Aaron beside Cathy and Patrick and opposite me. God what I would give for one more disagreement/debate/dispute with him.

As I walked toward Steve's house, I got tears in my eyes remembering Aaron as he was that September mornin: dishelved hair-a little long, white T-shirt-a little small, cords , sandals, strong arms-very long, big hands. A line from this song came to mind:

GREEN DAY LYRICS "Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed.

The innocent can never last.

Wake me up when september ends.

Like my fathers come to pass.

Seven years has gone so fast.

Wake me up when september ends.

Here comes the rain again.

Falling from the stars.

Drenched in my pain again.

Becoming who we are as my memory rests.

But never forgets what I lost.

Wake me up when september ends.

Summer has come and passed.

The innocent can never last.

Wake me up when september ends.

Ring out the bells again like we did when spring began.

Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again.

Falling from the stars.

Drenched in my pain again.

Becoming who we areas my memory rests.

But never forgets what I lost.

Wake me up when september ends.

Summer has come and passed.

The innocent can never last.

Wake me up when september ends.

Like my father's come to pass.

Twenty years has gone so fast.

Wake me up when september ends.

Wake me up when september ends.Wake me up when september ends.

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We had wonderful family time when spring began. Aaron was a summer boy. His favorite time has come and passed. Wake ME up when winter ends.

Thank you for reading.

Peace Teala

Aaron's Dad