Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Vibes and Prayers

When you turn out the lights tonight, go to sleep knowing your good vibes and prayers for our family are making a difference. There is peace and serenity in our home. Anguish is not being buried or trapped. Definitely shared. The anguish is not consuming us; love and gratitude are.

I think if you fill the space with grace, love, gratitude, sharing, caring, and good vibes there is no room for those crushing emotions. Oh, we know they have their place and time. All emotions are good. Anguish is pain but unlike slamming your finger in a door, the pain of anguish does some good... sort of cleansing. Did you ever cry so hard that your body shook, your head felt like it could actually crack and your muscles locked? Cathy, Patrick and I have felt that and while I don't look forward to the next go 'round, I have to say it is a gift from God.

Do you know the saying which goes something like: "I Hit myself in the head with a hammer because it feels so good when I stop"? Maybe that is a reference to anguish. I accept the experience of anguish because it feels so good when it stops.

Tonight we are grateful for Aaron and Patrick's friends who have shared their love with our sons and with us. Our friend Liz returned from a trip today and our friends Brad and Jenn (not that brad and jenn) came over for their first visit. We consider them fresh legs.

Peace and Good Will

Tom