Infuriating

Mourad said it is OK for me to be angry because I am angry. Not possible for to believe I can't be angry when I am. I know what I'm angry about. My son is gone and I did not give my permission for him to be gone this long and I surely did not give permission for God or anyone to take him. I did not give permission to anyone to build a stupid wall close to the road. I hate that wall. Who needs a wall to hold wood chips? Why does a four foot high, two foot wide wall have to be built 20 some feet from the edge of a road when there is 80 acres of land to hold mulch? Goddamn wall.

I want my son back! Fu----ng mulch sh-t f---ing wall. I hate that wall.
The owner said "If I knew the wall was dangerous I would never have built it." Two fu--ing years later the wall still stands and in fact it was re-fu--ing built. Put the fu---ng wood chip sh-t wall beind the goddamn barn out of harms way. Let my son go past. Let him be safe.

I have no abundance of gratitude right now. I'm angry. I didn't say it was OK to hurt my son.

Bring my son home and leave me alone.