Circumstances

The word keeps coming up: Circumstance. Victim of circumstance. When describing a situation, the weight of my description dominated by my characterization of other people shows my level of victim mentality. I can quickly see it in other people, the challenge is to see the victim of circumstance in me.

Maybe the best use of my last 48 hours was to get out of my ego where I could observe my mind. Like a potter I let my mind turn the wheel and be the hands to form something from a lump of clay. Art is within my capability. A lump of clay you would think can't be turned into anything less, but a circumstance can be more or less than reality.

Time is overrated and under scrutinized in my opinion, so it is no surprise that given time, I am capable of creating illusion from reality. What a low level of awareness. Time, left alone does nothing except slip into the future. Time seasoned with resentment is bitter. Add forgiveness and compassion to get something worthy. Today I am grateful for the people who saved me from misery once before. They raise me up to a higher ground to see the world from a different point of view.

Once again, I get the opportunity to answer the question, "Now that this has happened, what am I going to do about me?" What I was resisting for the last week was not answering the question, I resisted asking the question.

How I answer the question is not in words. My answer has to be in action.